A little late, but I guess it’s as good a time as any to wrap up the previous year. Looking back, 2013 has had it’s ups and downs. But even if i were to try to weigh one against the other I don’t think I would be able to… my memory, as always, isn’t stellar.
2013 had been a year of firsts. Lots of them, though not my first heartbreak. I finally understand what is meant by a ‘whirlwind romance’. A year where I’d loved and lost, then tried to love again, and still lost. I’m not surprised, my love life thus far had been nothing but rocky and predictably bad. Not that anyone is to blame except me, I guess. I had the opportunity but I never grabbed hold of them. One can only make overtures that many times before he gets tired of it, no?
Regrets. If I had regrets for the year, it’s how things had ended on a fade out between us. Drifting apart is the worst way to end a relationship, I realized that now. It had happened the last time too, and now again. I guess I just never learn.
I guess our bet’s off now, huh?
What wreck me the most are all the could-have-beens.
I’m not big on making resolutions. I end up forgetting them most of the time. So I’ll see this as a challenge rather than a promise – I’ll stop being a coward. Stop taking three steps back every time someone takes a step forward.
I’ll stop thinking so much and just go with the flow.
Here’s to a better 2014.
I’m normally not so maudlin. I blame it on Block B and 넌 어디에.